Yes i know, but at the moment i feel this. And i need time too, to solve it.
When I was in New York everything was amazing, and when i arrived home, these feelings stayed with me, and i loved it.
But at home the days, the weeks, the routines, and everything else pulled me back to my reality. And i realised, that i can’t hide my problems, and it’s not a solution if i turn my back.
And this recognition was so hard! So i have to find the right way, and let go (or solve, i don’t know) my past, and now, this is the most important thing, without this step, everything stay in this unsure ‘theme’.
I’m so sorry, it’s not because of you or your personality. You are an amazing guy, but the timing is not so good…i thought that i can give you the same, but at the moment one thing for sure….I can’t.
And not because of for example i don’t like to speak in english orally, it’s more serious….I like you too, but not on the same way as you, and it started to frustrate me, i don’t wanna be selfish: because i like to talking with you, and like to be your friend in some way.
I don’t know what will be, or what will i feel in one, three or six months’ time …but now i need to concentrate on myself, and i have to be faced my problems, no matter how hard is it. Because this is the only way i can choose. I would be a 100 % person, not a half, and after that i know that everything will so good 🙂
I hope (and maybe know) that you will understand it – and yes, yes that’s not problem because i told you the truth.
I know it’s a little late…have a good flight